Saturday, January 9, 2010 I can't deceive myself any longer.
I know I can't give up, I know I can't
I've tried for so long, cried for so many times, and end up my feelings are still the same, in fact, deeper.
The road ahead of me is still long, I'm aware of that.
And this small setback shall not bring me down.
But, I'm really very overwhelmed by this sadness, that is striking me every second.
Huiting, this is a really a good time for you to do it.
I'm not blaming you, I'm not.
In fact I'm happy for you, to be able to find that someone.
You keep telling yourself it's impossible for you to find him, but you still did.
And you found him BEFORE I did.
That's perhaps the greatest surprise in your life?
The least possible became possible.
But look at me, once thought to be the most possible, but end up? Nothing.
All the best.
Don't worry for me.
I'll get over it, I will.
Sorry for this crappy post........
just needed somewhere to cry out to.
Gbye to you.
you will be out of my life,
when i decide to push you out.
but right now, i don't think i can do it.
i should just go bang the wall now right.
Shwufang! was here @ 3:05 AM.