Sunday, January 17, 2010 投入越深，伤害越深
Expected all these to happen anyway.
Seriously, I don't know what I should do now.
I know everyone means a lot to you.
But remember I told you before? That the 3 of us, can never be the same as before.
And if you make a choice between 1 of us, you will lose the other.
You promised me that time that you won't look back.
You were so sure that time.
But I knew, I KNEW, one day this would still happen.
Seriously, I don't know if I should continue moving on with you,
Or to move on without you.
I told you before, I did.
If you have her, I'll be gone from your life.
The theory still stands. Cause I don't want another history to repeat itself.
Since you can't make the decision I shall make it for you.
I'm sorry if I'm going to make you emo again or whatsoever.
Cause I already told you before.
I shall make things happen, cause it'll happen sooner or later.
Seriously I don't know how I should feel.
Angry? Sad?
No, is total loss of hope.
Let me tell you this.
In September whatever things I've did to salvage the friendship is the final thing I'll do.
I have no confidence of doing it again, is all I can say.
Since you have decided on her, then why did you even come back into my life that time?
You are just making my life miserable.
All the coming backs and leavings, you think it's fun?
Can you just bloody hell make a choice and stop looking back?
I chose you and not her. And I sticked to my choice even until now, for so many years.
Yet you? What did you give me?
Agony and pain everytime. I don't deny the fact that I made you sad for many times.
But do you know that the feeling you are giving me is betrayal?
I trusted you so much, so I came back to you. Believing that you got my point and you understood my stand and you will maintain it.
But you made me disappointed. AGAIN AND AGAIN.
Seriously, I have no rights to force you to leave her already.
And if things have no change till tonight,
I'll be out of your life,
Forever.
You chose it, not me.
Shwufang! was here @ 2:37 PM.